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Wednesday, September 04, 2019

Familiar Pain

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Familiar Pain


So here's something about Tokngah.


Duduk sebelah rumah, lost her husband (my Atok's brother) in her early 30s - never got married after that, Atok's bestfriend, sayang I macam cucu sendiri sebab basically I grew up with her around as well, punca I tak berapa suka durian sebab masa kecik Tokngah bagi I makan overdose durian sampai demam panas, and a very nice soul.

Masa I kecik sampai sekarang, my parents are abroad. So these atoks figures gave me so much love and took care of me. Tokngah akan berjuang berhabisan kat dapur kalau dapat tau parents I akan balik dan akan manjakan terutamanya mak I dengan laksa kesukaan dia.

Lepas Atok takdak, Tokngah tak pernah suruh I berhenti sedih, apa dia akan buat sebab dia tau I akan skip makan, dia akan pi dekat tingkap bilik dia sambil panggil "Amalinaaa (bukan panggilan sebenar) mai makan maiiii" and refused to eat first sebelum I sampai. So nak taknak I kena pi on time sebab nanti dia gastrik dan I takmau jadi punca Tokngah gastrik haha.

I selalu cakap dekat Tokngah, kalau I diberi peluang untuk jaga Atok sekali lagi, I sanggup. Tuhan makbulkan doa I sebab nak masuk 8 bulan Atok takdak, Tokngah sakit. I clearkan semua jadual kerja I untuk masukkan jaga Tokngah dalam jadual tu. Trips to the hospital became frequent, walaupun hospital tu bagi I sedih tapi demi Tokngah sihat I ingatkan diri I "demi Tokngahhhh you can do disssss"



And I know if Atok were here, she would force me to tend to Tokngah as well.

Sepanjang Tokngah sakit, tak berhenti dia tanya "macam ni ka Atok dulu?" "Macam mana Atok hang dulu handle sakit ni?" "Macam mana hang handle?" 

It was all worth it. The taking care of Atok, taking care of Tokngah, it was all wallahi worth it. 

I was recovering from the pain of losing Atok. 10 months and 19 days after that, the pain came back. Tokngah left us, to join Atok to a better place.




Never have I expected to go through everything again in less than a year. The pain, masyaAllah tak boleh I nak describe.

There will be no more sembang dengan Tokngah pasai salah silah keluarga sebab Tokngah tahu semua okay, no more asking for recipes, no more teasing Tokngah, no more "oiii buat apa tuuu" dari tingkap bilik Tokngah, no more everything.

I am sorry for all the messages that I haven't replied. I am sorry if I decided to not reply after "kena kuat tau" because I know I am stronger than this, and I redha sebab mati tu pasti, I am just dissapointed because I should be strong but I realised I am only a human. 

My favourite girls have gone to a better place where there are no pain and hospitals. Moga kita semua satu keluarga ditemukan kelak bila sampai masa, dekat alam kekal abadi. Until then, miss you girls! and ofcourse, love you. Al-Fatihah.

Sunday, July 21, 2019

Jenis Cat Litter Malaysia

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Jenis Cat Litter Malaysia


Ni I bagi review jujur ikhlas untuk cat litter yang I pernah try ja okay sebab banyak orang tanya I, cat litter jenis apa yang berbaloi, yang tak bagi bau sangat dan lain lain lagi.


Oh ya, dalam blog ni I pernah cerita pasal Simba ja mungkin sebab dia kucing pertama yang I adopt. Kalau nak cerita pasal semua kucing kucing I yang I adopt, mungkin blog ni boleh tukar nama jadi blog kucingku kot. Kalau nak tau cara neuter kucing apa semua, klik dekat Adopt Don't Shop kt atas tu.


Lepas Simba, I adopt lagi dua ekor kucing, tapi seekor tu dalam 3 bulan ja I jaga, lepastu dia menghilangkan diri. Tinggal la lagi seekor nama dia Tam Scammer. Awat Scammer? Nanti la I cerita. 


Lepas Arwah Atok I takdak, I berharap Tam bunting sebab I nak tambah kucing, tapi Tam bagi harapan palsu sebab lepas dia mengawan, I ingat dia bunting, rupanya dia gemok ja. 


Seekor lagi entah pi mana. Karpet ni pun I dah gulung sebab makin banyak kucing, I taknak ada bulu bulu melekat kt karpet




Lalu satu hari tu, I pi kedai makan dekat dengan rumah I, I nampak seekor mak kucing baru lepas beranak, anak dia ada dalam 4 ekor. Masa I tunggu makanan siap, I main main la dengan anak anak kucing tu. Owner kedai tu nampak, dia tanya I "You nak ka? Ambik la" I pun tak berapa ready nak tambah banyak sangat, so I cakap "Eh takpa takpa. Saja ja main dengan depa" Lepastuuuu dia cakap "Oh kalau taknak, kami nak pi hantaq pi markit dah. Banyak sangat dah kucing kat sini" I apa lagi, I terus mintak kotak nak bawak balik.



Ni masa I ambik diorang




FAST FORWARD 3 BULAN






So total I ada sekarang ni 7 ekor yang litter trained. I jenis sensitif sikit bau taik kucing ni walaupun litter tray kucing I ada dalam dan luar rumah, maka wajiblah I buat eksperimen cat litter mana yang paling serap bau. 



1. BENTONITE CLAY



Yang ni paling ramai guna dan juga I pun guna lama. Sebab murah dan kan dia ada banyak pilihan bau bau tu kan, I fikir boleh la kurangkan bau busuk. Tapi tidak ya tuan tuan dan puan puan. Tambah kalau kucing makan wetfood, tak sampai malam hidung sensitif I mesti terbau dan time time tu jugak la I nak bersihkan.


Recommend? YES untuk kucing seekor, dan tengah save budget. NO kalau hidung sensitif dan tak rajin nak bersihkan.


P/S : Tapi fikir balik tak save budget sangat pun sebenarnya tambah kalau kucing lebih dari seekor, sebab kena kerap tukar. Last last cepat jugak habis walaupun murah. Murah + Cepat habis = Mahal.



2. CRYSTAL



Yang ni memang bagi takdak bau yang tak menyenangkan. Harga, boleh tahan la. Tapiii, boleh guna lama (approximately kalau dua ekor kucing dewasa, sebulan). Orang kedai tu cakap boleh guna banyak kali, rajin tak rajin ja persoalannya. 


Masih kena buang bahan kumbahan kucing tapi air kencing kucing dah terserap dah dekat silica kt crystal ni. Yang orang kedai tu cakap boleh guna banyak kali tu, dia cakap cara cara dia, nanti basuh crystal ni dan jemur. Aha, I tak berapa nak rajin ya kawan kawan. 


Cons crystal ni. Kalau kucing mengalami sakit perut dan bahan kumbahan dia cair, crystal tu nampak kotor walaupun sebenarnya dah buang dah semua bahan kumbahan dia. Tak sedap mata memandang seolah olah masih ada lagi bahan kumbahan walaupun dah cuci.


Recommend? YES kalau kucing bawah dari dua ekor. 





3. TOFU



I beli ni sebab ada promo. Harga dia mahal sikit dari crystal, serapan dia so-so. I taktau la so-so sebab jenama yang I beli tu ka apa, tapi benda ni mahal tapi dia jalankan kerja dia tak berapa efisien. Tak saving sebab untuk 7 ekor kucing cepat sangat habis, dah jadi macam guna bentonite clay pulak.

Serapan bau pulak, biasa biasa ja. 

Recommend? NO sebab harga mahal tapi  so-so.





4. PINE 



I baru try pine ni sebab okay dia mahal. Tapi I tekad nak beli jugak sebab tak cuba taktahu? Kalau tak berbaloi, takpayah beli dah kan?


TAPI I TAKKAN BERPALING TADAH DAH. Lepasni I akan beli jenis ni ja. Serapan dia power, bahan kumbahan kucing keras ka, cair ka, walaupun apa apa bentuk sekalipun, dia menyerap bau dengan power dan bila nak bersihkan (scoop) pun senangnyaaaa.


Walaupun mahal tapi dia tahan lama. Apa yang I buat, I isi banyak sikit dalam litter tray, lepastu hari hari I scoop keluar bahan kumbahan ja. Tak payah topup pun pine dalam litter tray. Kiranya dalam seminggu tu boleh bertahan tanpa topup, cuma scoop keluar ja bahan kumbahan.


Setakat ni dah dua minggu berlalu, tapi satu bag 10L tu hanya separuh digunakan. Litter tray I ada 4. Dan setiap satu litter tray tu I letak bagi 2-3 inci pine ni. 



Mahal + Tak payah topup selalu = Murah dan berbaloi


Recommend? YASSSSSSSSS




Selamat menjaga kucing dan rumah takdak bau macam ada banyak kucing. Jaga kebersihan okay dan jaga kucing baik baik. Jangan dah tak larat nak jaga buang dekat markit. 


Semoga membantu. Doakan I murah rezeki supaya I boleh adopt kucing lagi dan neuter kan diorang supaya populasi kucing jalanan makin kurang  #AdoptDontShop


Akhir kata, bye!







Sunday, April 07, 2019

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I just realised how "heavy" my previous posts. Hello, we need the fun Amalina back? Thanks.


Anyway, here's some update, even if no one is interested, I am still going to update myself. Ehek. I am cutting on my sugary drinks intake. Not that I drink a lot of sugary drinks (bubble tea doesn't count), I am okay with cutting sugary drinks. But recently, our shipments from the UK arrived and we are now selling hot chocolates! 


Come visit our shopee (and buy some hehehehehe)


(search : TheAi)




A lot of the customers were asking me for my recommendation. I used this as an excuse to try sachets of all the hot chocolates just because I nearly forgotten the taste of those hot chocolates. Nak recommend kena la tahu rasa kan?


Need. To. Restart. My. No. Sugary. Drinks. Challenge!

I still remember my first hot chocolate. It was by the brand Options (which we also sell). I don't like nor dislike the taste of that hot chocolate, it was okaaay lah. Probably back then I needed more chocolaty chocolate drink which I ended up always choosing Galaxy or Mars chocolate drink. Now, I realised that I prefer Options and also Cadbury Light which are less chocolaty taste and also less sugar. 





I am not sure I am getting older or my previous no sugary drinks challenge actually work and made my taste buds becoming more sensitive to sweet stuff?


Also, I recently adopted more cats. I went to a restaurant and saw this beautiful mother cat with her four kittens. The guy from the restaurant saw me stroking the cat and asked me whether I wanted them. I already have a few cats at home not to mention my kaklong kawasan (my first cat) doesn't really like other cats. The thing that made me decided to take them when he said "kalau you taknak, kami terpaksa letak dekat markit kot sebab dah banyak sangat kucing ni". I said without thinking anymore "kotak ada tak? I ambik semua".


The cats roam around during the day, the kittens mostly are in the house during the day. At night, they sleep in their cages (except for kaklong kawasan, she sleeps indoor)  just because my house is near the main road. Nanti kena langgar, teriak I. I am very sensitive to smell. My routine everyday is basically disinfecting and doing everything that I can so that my house doesn't smell like I have thousands of cats. My friend came one day and the first thing she said "awat rumah hang wangi teruk ni". Better than smelly right? I take that as a compliment, thanks.


I'll update more later. Until then, bye!


Tuesday, March 12, 2019

A Pleasant Surprise

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A Pleasant Surprise


I have been busy lately (ni sungguh busy bukan buat buat busy seperti alasan tipikal sebelum sebelum ni) hehehe. 


Masa tengah busy ni la otak I "bising" teruk, masa tu la nak fikir benda benda lain, masa tu la nak rindu Atok lebih lebih daripada biasa, masa tu la nak fikir idea. Kiranya tiba tiba semua benda jadi macam so overwhelming dia rasa nak teriak ja malas nak buat apa apa. 


Bila semua benda rasa macam too much to digest, I take a break. Masa tengah rehat sat dari fikirkan masalah duniawi yg tak pernah berhenti ni, tiba tiba I dapat notification email. I terdetik takmau baca sat sebab ceh konon konon me time, notification dari email ni selalunya menandakan kerja, kerja, design daripada IH, kerja, summary fitbit, summary website, kerja dan sales. 


Tapi sebab I sejenis curious tak bertempat, I pun bukak la email tu.


And I received this :



Email ni sebenarnya daripada diri I sendiri. I tak ingat pun pasai email ni sebenarnya. Tahun lepas, I guna satu website ni untuk tulis email kt diri sendiri, saja ja mengada nak try. Tak sangka email ni sampai bila waktu I memerlukan sangat sangat. Thank you Amalina2018! 


(Tapi stress sikit sebab bila email ni dapat, dia punya tanda bacaan apa semua kelaut. Its okay, I am happy already)



Anyway, this is for me and also for you.


"If you count the facours of Allah, you will not be able to calculate. Indeed He is forgiving and merciful. Allah does not burden  a soul beyond that it can bear. 

Rather than stressing about things we cannot control, pray to the One in control. Pray to the One in control and find relief."


:)

Thursday, February 07, 2019

Gloomy Post

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Gloomy Post

At my age, I am at the point where I am receiving news from my friends that they are getting engaged, getting married, expecting and gave birth. Those are the happy news. 

At this point of my life as well, I am receiving news of people's death. These are the sad news. 


Today, while I was busy sorting out my duniawi stuff, I received a news that my classmate during my degree passed away. He was a year younger than me. True, it's already time for him to go back to Him, but it hit me hard because back then during degree, we were so carefree, he was in my circle of friends and later on we did not keep in touch because, life. In fact, not many of us knew about him after graduating.


And today I got the news that he is gone, forever. 


It made me wonder if today is my day, will I be ready to actually face Him? I have been reminding myself and my family members that "syarat untuk mati tu hidup" but am I ready?

Since Atok passed away, I lost another two of my extended family members. Both were young. Latest is my friend. 

And since Atok passed away, people been asking the same question ; how did I moved on? The answer is, I never moved on. I am struggling but I am living in her memories. God knows how hard it is.

This dunya is temporary. I hope when my time is up, I am bringing with me enough deeds to allow me to be reunited with Atok and Tok (and be reunited with my parents)(and spouse)(and my family), insyaAllah.




Al-Fatihah to everyone that has gone back to our Creator.



P/S : I have never stopped missing you, Atok.



Tuesday, February 05, 2019

[TRIP] Barcelona, Spain

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[TRIP] Barcelona, Spain

Sebelum I lupa dan update entri ni tahun depan, baik lah I tulis siap siap supaya mungkin dapat jadi pedoman dekat siapa siapa yang nak pi Barcelona.

PSA : Bukan dekat Barcelona ja, tapi dekat mana mana tempat pun please be careful especially when you are travelling alone. Tapi sebab mak abah I pernah kena rompak dulu dekat Barcelona so I jadi lagi extra careful la.


Departed to Barcelona from Liverpool John Lennon's Airport very early in the morningg. The journey took around 2 hours + to Barcelona and as usual, I slept most of the time (except for this particular time where I woke up and saw this view) (lepas tu sambung tidoq balik)



Arrived at Barcelona. Okay from the airport, the signs were confusing. I was supposed to go to the hotel by train but because the signs were confusing, it took me quite some time to actually figure out where I was supposed to go. When I (finally) figured out, I had to walk about 15 minutes to finally arrived at the train station. 

Padahal ada ja free shuttle yang boleh bawak pi train station tapi biasa la, first time. 


At the train station, tak reti nak beli tiket pulaaak sebab mostly the instructions are in Spanish, you could change the language to English but it will take some time and also the queue was long. Thank you to the station's helper where I explained where I was going and whether he could show me how to purchase the ticket.


So guys, if you are staying more than two days in Barcelona and you are most likely to use the public transport, the kind helper suggested to buy the T-10 ticket. It will cost you 10.20 euros. But if you are sure you are just going to the places nearby to your hotel, tak payah beli tiket tu pun takpa, beli tiket single. 

(T-10 ticket is only valid to be used for 10 terminals) (I was in Barcelona for 4 days and I used up the ticket)






1. La Sagrada Familia

This was the first place that I went because it was the nearest. It was a 15 minutes walk from my apartment tapi kalau malas sangat boleh ja naik train lepastu turun kat satu station selepas itu. Tapi I cheapskate nak simpan tiket haruslah I sanggup jalan kaki (padahal nak tengok tempat makan jugak) 


*sorry pemalas nak type, I ambik dekat website dia ja hehehe*






Masa I kat Barcelona ni I ada terfikir nak jadi arkitek tapi tu lah........

Nak masuk dalam ni kena beli tiket, dan tiket tu kena beli online. The amount of people that were going into the building tu fuh ramai so I decided to move on. I heard that it is only open on certain days in January. Mungkin sebab tak ramai tourists kot masa bulan bulan tu.



2. Park Guell

This is basically, a park. Previously it was an exclusive project camtu la for Gaudi to design few houses in the park so jadi macam community rumah rumah style la dekat situ. Now it has been turned into a park. If you just want to have a walk around the park, you are free to do so. However, if you want to go into the area of the nice houses, you have to buy the ticket. I forgotten how much it was but it was less than 10 euros, probably around 6 euros? 


If you are on a tight budget, you might not want to pay for the ticket and just walk in the park. However if you want to see what is the big deal and also for you to experience the architecture, go ahead. I went in, and for me it was okay la worth it la (ayat penyedap hati). The place was nice but they were again, a lot of people. Hello I thought January is a quiet month for Barcelona?!








Ni gambar gambar sneak peek ajerrr.


The Metro system as usual ikut warna. Contoh macam nak pi balik apartment I, kena naik train yang nanti sambung dengan line F5 Blue. My problem was, the colours were *cough* confusing *cough*. I got on the wrong line because the guide book instructed catch the train Metro Zone Orange, I ended up taking the Metro Zone Red because the colours are the same..........



3. La Rambla

A 1.2 kilometres pedestrian streets where a lot of shops and also restaurants located here. I rasa I patut duduk dekat sini. Nasib baik ja apartment I jauh dari sini kalau tak kerja I tengok kedai kedai dekat sini ja. 


Remember there was a story that went viral, about a dog that being shot in front of a hotel because his homeless human was being taken away by the authorities and he wa just trying to save his human? Ha'ah the hotel is located around this area. 







4. Montjuic

There are cable cars and public transport to go to this hill. But when I went to the station there were notices saying that at the moment the train to go to Montjuic is under renovation. I need to catch a bus to go to this place but I WALKED to this place. 




It took me probably more that 30 minutes to arrive on top of the hill. Anyway, the view was worth it. Tapi kejap je la sebab lepas tu nak pergi museum, museum tutup. Nak pergi art gallery, art gallery tutup. Semua tengah renovate sebab sepatutnya kan Januari bukan peak month. If you want to visit these places, check dulu bulan you nak pi tu semua tutup ka dak.


Tutup

Nasib baik view cantik


Oh there is a park on top of this hill. Niceeee but again the cafe was closed, and also it was a bit quiet there and secluded. If you are alone, I suggest not to stay there for too long or even don't use the park as a shortcut. I jalan pun macam lipas kudung sebab nak pi museum (yang tutup).



5. Casa Mila

Casa Mila, or La Pedrera (the stone quarry due to its inconventional rough-hewn appearance). It is the last private residence designed by Antoni Gaudi.

My photo doesn't do justice to the place. It is beautiful. I masa ni dah kelam kabut nak pi airport dah nak balik tapi haruslah menyempat nak menyinggah last pit stop.





I bagi list 5 ja sebab 5 tempat ni yang I plan nak pi tengok. Along the way I nak pi tempat tempat ni, I banyak menyinggah dan ada banyak random places yang I terjumpa dengan tak sengaja (tapi I malas nak masukkan sebab I terjumpa dengan tak sengaja dan I tak ingat pun jalan hewhewhew).




Overall, Barcelona is a nice place to go and explore. The people are okay okay la tak ramah sangat, tak sombong sangat. Diorang dekat sana bawak kereta fuh sakit jantung, nak lintas tu elok elok la. 


Suggestions : Jangan bawak cash banyak sangat, letak cash dengan cards dekat hidden money bag. Belajar basic Spanish sebab orang orang tua dekat sini diorang tak prefer sangat cakap English. Diorang faham korang cakap English tapi diorang akan reply dalam Spanish. There was an incident happened depan apartment I. Makcik makcik ni nak membawang dengan I sebab I ada dekat situ, tapi I faham basic Spanish, diorang faham basic English, boleh bayang dak conversation kami macam ayam dengan itik?


Would I revisit? Yes. Tapi lepas I dah pi tempat lain pulak.


If you are planning to go, have fun and be safeeee.